I’ve received about $30 in donations, which is $30 more than I thought I’d ever receive and I’m so grateful for that.
But flight tickets alone are $300 (as of right now, which is not terrible for round-trip but daunting when I have pretty much $0). Not to mention money to eat/ride the subway/taxi to/from the airport, etc.
And I’m still going to need money to buy presents for friends/family for Christmas! I’m not going to go to new york and have fun if that means I can’t afford to buy gifts for my family — especially after the year we’ve had.
I’ll get my first paycheck from work on Friday and another on the 20th. But I’m just sitting here freaking out about whether I’ll have enough on time. And like I’ve said on here before - my fucking job caps our hours at 28 a week. Not to mention the fact that they hired me in early November, I said I couldn’t work until the 11th because they were doing a film festival and I didn’t want to be a new(ish) person fucking around with that. And then after that they dicked me around for two weeks before actually starting me.
So I mean as of right now I really have no idea what I will need and what I’ll be getting. I have some money saved in my piggy bank but shit. None of this looks good. I’m freaking out about it but idk. Part of that is probably because I’m trying to accept that I won’t be able to go.
I’ll have other opportunities to see all of these people and to see that one special asshole. But things have just gone so poorly. I built up this NYE event in my head and I guess, tbh, that’s completely my fault.
yo i’m sorry i bet you just wanted a really direct answer haha oops.